Euphoria (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} anorexchic) wrote,@ 2009-02-19 10:56:00 |
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I haven't weighed myself yet, I'm still drinking coffee.
I wanted to post this video. It's pretty good 'thinspiration'. This is not racist, but she's like the skinniest black chick I've ever seen. I know that anyone can have any type of body, but I always thought that black people were always "thicker" than white people. But yeah, if I could have her body, things would be perfect. And she can really dance well, too.
Natasha-Sidekick
And a big haha at my last entry. We got into a huge fight on the 17th. He kicked out the taillights on my car. He also pushed me over into the passenger seat and was driving up and down Derek's road at 50mph threatening to wreck my car. I was truely scared for my life. So we broke up. I cut the string on the balloon and let it go, and I smeared the rose on the ground and wrote some nasty stuff on the card, but I didn't give it to him. This will be the second time we've "really" broken up. Last time was November 4th. But we got back together. We're still talking. I'm supposed to see him today on the pretense of him giving me more pot, because I'm all out. He says he loves me, and I think I love him. If this is so, how come we keep fighting, he keeps abusing me and we keep breaking up. He threatens to breakup with me alot, but we end up getting back together within ten minutes. So I didn't tell anyone this time that we broke up. I don't want drama. He says that I'm not on his team. He hates my parents, specifically my mother. He was pissed that my mother started to talk about getting a job to him. He makes a lot of money selling pot, and he told her that in so many words. Said that her income wasn't shit. I can't make him shut up, I can't make my mother shut up, so I just walked away. Clyde was furious that I didn't stick up for him to my mother. Therefore I'm not on his team. We break up. I think I want to stay broken up, but I miss him. I can't stand the thought of him with another girl. And I'm too ugly and boring to get a new boyfriend. If I'm not with Clyde, then I'm shut-in at my house. I don't even do anything where I could meet people. And I certainly don't want to meet any of the guys that Kaytee knows. Wow, this has turned into a really long rant. Maybe I should cut this. Did I mention that we've been together for almost 3 years?
I haven't weighed myself yet, I'm still drinking coffee.
I wanted to post this video. It's pretty good 'thinspiration'. This is not racist, but she's like the skinniest black chick I've ever seen. I know that anyone can have any type of body, but I always thought that black people were always "thicker" than white people. But yeah, if I could have her body, things would be perfect. And she can really dance well, too.
Natasha-Sidekick
And a big haha at my last entry. We got into a huge fight on the 17th. He kicked out the taillights on my car. He also pushed me over into the passenger seat and was driving up and down Derek's road at 50mph threatening to wreck my car. I was truely scared for my life. So we broke up. I cut the string on the balloon and let it go, and I smeared the rose on the ground and wrote some nasty stuff on the card, but I didn't give it to him. This will be the second time we've "really" broken up. Last time was November 4th. But we got back together. We're still talking. I'm supposed to see him today on the pretense of him giving me more pot, because I'm all out. He says he loves me, and I think I love him. If this is so, how come we keep fighting, he keeps abusing me and we keep breaking up. He threatens to breakup with me alot, but we end up getting back together within ten minutes. So I didn't tell anyone this time that we broke up. I don't want drama. He says that I'm not on his team. He hates my parents, specifically my mother. He was pissed that my mother started to talk about getting a job to him. He makes a lot of money selling pot, and he told her that in so many words. Said that her income wasn't shit. I can't make him shut up, I can't make my mother shut up, so I just walked away. Clyde was furious that I didn't stick up for him to my mother. Therefore I'm not on his team. We break up. I think I want to stay broken up, but I miss him. I can't stand the thought of him with another girl. And I'm too ugly and boring to get a new boyfriend. If I'm not with Clyde, then I'm shut-in at my house. I don't even do anything where I could meet people. And I certainly don't want to meet any of the guys that Kaytee knows. Wow, this has turned into a really long rant. Maybe I should cut this. Did I mention that we've been together for almost 3 years?
