So this day one was a fail, but I've been out of wack for so long it's almost understandable. Almost. School starts tomorrow. I can make it really official then.

Things I'm going to do:

Make a things to do daily list and mark it in a planner and cross it off as I finish them.

Take pictures of my favorite skinny clothes and post them where I can see them and take them with me.

Wear pedometer everyday and track calories. Try and get a better one ASAP. Probably next paycheck.

Do some sort of learning activity everyday. Math, read some textbook, listen to a lecture, work on spelling and vocabulary.

Do something creative everyday. Draw or write or make something with my hands. Sew.

Finish a book a week.

Work on posture and typing skills.

Learn more practical HTML.


Things to do tomorrow:

Finish notebook/things to do lists and planner.

Exercise.

Go to bed at a decent hour.



What I did today was work 11-4. I ended up eating some of the mistakes, and then because I was obsessing on what I couldn't have, I minibinged on two cookies from subway brought in by a co-worker and I went to Jamba Juice and had smoothie. (Is it healthy or feasible to fast on Jamba Juice?) Came home, got stoned. Etc. So I'm swearing off pain pills for now. The next to go is weed, just until I'm entirely sure the methadone is gone from my body. I told C I was really going to try this time and I want him to hold me accountable.

Yesterday, he made me cum for the first time in our two year relationship. Oralwise I mean.

"Talkin' about gats, traps, cops and robbers
it's 911 please call the doctor!"