Current mood:	excited
Current music:	The Dresden Dolls - Mandy Goes to Med School

Day 1
Will all my subjects be "Day One" until the end of time? I'm going to control my eating today. I've been binging uncontrollably for a month, maybe a month and a half. Since mid-March. I had the guts to jump on the scale yesterday, I'm up ten pounds to 160. My body feels totally alien to me. I have a hard time moving around and none of my clothes fit comfortably. Last night I stayed up late working on a control list of things I need to do daily, weekly, monthly for all my parts; Body, mind, intake, outgo, chores. I drew up a budget so hopefully I can start saving some money. I'm supposed to be saving for car insurance but it's been impossible. I've been spending on every little whim and want. I have nothing in the bank.

I haven't exercised since mid-March either. I'm all around disgusting.

So this is my plan: I'm going to stick to 1000 cals a day, drink 2 liters of water, drink laxi tea at night, and eat a ton of fiber in the morning to clean out my system, and push all this ugly binge food out of my tubes. Kind of a detox. Then once I start pooping normally, I'll bring my cals down, eat more veggies instead of carbs and maybe even a fast day here and there. Maybe once a week? Exercise an hour a day, minimum. Half hour cardio, 20 mins yoga, 10 mins on the exercise ball doing sit ups and push ups, etc.

My skin, hair and nails will be perfect always.

I don't want to talk about my downfalls anymore. It will only be up (and down) from here.